Half a Day

Today went by much better. Got up and did my thing! I was a little cranky today though, and seriously exhausted. 

At the gym I attempted this workout:

warm up

12 Bicep curls

12 dips

12 shoulder press

12 lateral raise

Run/Walk .5 miles

20 lunges

20 calf raises

20 squats

I was supposed to do this twice but I didn’t have time. This exercise set requires a good full hour and all I have in the mornings is 30 minutes, so no go there. I did finish one round though so that felt pretty good. Although I did have some pain throughout the day. I’m not sure what it was due to, if it was the exercises or something else. 

Now I’m overly exhausted and eager for bedtime. Gah

Blundering

I’ve done really well this week with my goals so far, with a few minor adjustments and bumps. Today however I’m sucking. The husband came home and has thrown a few things off. Today I did not get up on time and now I’m just sluggish and frustrated. Granted, the toddler got up at 4:30 and was coughing and wanted in our bed. She wasn’t able to go back to sleep like she usually does after getting into our bed because the husband has to have the TV on when he’s awake. Which he was. So no one was sleeping much. Toddler was tossing and turning. I was tossing and turning. Husband was watching TV. UGH. 5:30 alarm goes off and I am like, ok I’m giving myself one snooze hit. so the second alarm goes off and I begin to get up. Husband then informs me that no, we don’t need to get up because he doesn’t have to go to work this morning. Well, there you go. Brain shuts down, fine. I’m going back to sleep. Which begins my struggle with actually waking up when old me had to to make preteen’s lunch. 

I battle with using husband as an excuse to not do the things I’m aiming to do. Things like he’s leaving soon so I should spend as much time with him, maybe he’s right I can just sleep in this one time, I didn’t get hardly any sleep due to him, he doesn’t want to go on a walk after dinner so none of us go, he wants to sit at home so no bike ride or hike or outing today. He and I have discussed this before, that we are no longer the adventurous, nonstop couple we used to be. Now we are in a rut, an old people come home sit on the couch snack eat and tv, bed by 9:00 rut. Now the bed by 9:00 is no complaint 😉 I do enjoy that. But regardless, we are lazy. Our kids are neglected and we yell at them for acting up for attention. We are lazy. 

So what do I do? I have to get up and do it without him. He will soon realize he’s being left out and he’ll either pitch a fit or come willingly. Either way he’ll make it there in the end. I have to realize that I can’t put myself or our children out in the dust because he’s not ready to get out of out rut yet. I know he wants to, he’s said so before. He’s just not motivated yet. I have to stop using him as an excuse to not accomplish my goals. I’m never going to reach them when I’ve got ANY kind of excuse. So today is a blundering mess, but I will make up for it. I have to. Plus, if I start kicking up my dust and getting things done, maybe he will see that he can accomplish his own goals as well. 

I’m kicking and screaming, but I will get it done. I will get my run done today because I didn’t get it done sunday or tuesday. I’ve at least gone to the gym though. And I haven’t eaten out, I’ve always had my lunch box of snacks with me. So on many things I’ve accomplished a lot and done really well. I’ve eaten pretty well for the most part too. Binged on chocolate once and had one slice of pizza at an event, but that is still much better than old me. So I’m happy about that! I do feel myself craving and getting upset over fast food or junk food, but so far I’ve managed to control it. I’ve the fridge full of veggies and healthy stuff so hopefully the rest of the week will go by smoothly.

Tonight, we are going to the park to do my run. GET IT DONE MOMMA!!

Goals

Rise earlier….ugh, the devil gave me this goal. I loath waking up in the morning. However I suppose if I can conquer this, I can conquer any goal 😦 sadface….

Eat less fast food. This is tough one. I do love my fast food, and it’s much easier than cooking. However it’s not great for me and it’s cheaper to eat at home. I’m not going to cut it out completely because in the past I’ve never been successful with that. This time I think I’ll just limit myself.

Be more active with the kids. I am one of the laziest people ever! My favorite thing to do is sit on the couch with my computer, phone, and tv and just veg out and do NOTHING. My kids get the butt end of that deal though, and it’s not fair. We need to plan more outings and more activities. This is where I get into trouble with fast food though, we will be out and about and I’ll forget what time it is and then we’ll just grab fast food because it’s quick and easy. This is where the next goal comes into play…

Plan better! Surely I can just keep a cooler in the car with sandwiches, snacks, lunches, etc to keep us from eating out. I think the kids will be much happier with this as well because they LOVE picnics! This will tie in the Rise Early goal because if I rise early, I’ll have time to prep it all and store it so it’s ready to go.

Ugh…what am I doing to myself…

Get regular with fitness mom! I’ve been doing pretty well this week, I’ve been to the gym twice and run three times. I’ve always dreamed of being that super fab mom who gets up at the butt-crack of dawn and goes running before my dear family awakes. Yeah, never happened because the morning is the spawn of satan! It doesn’t help that if I wanted to do that, I’d have to be out the door at 5:00am to run because the husband leaves at 6:00 and I have to have his lunch made before he heads out. I suppose 5:00 really isn’t THAT bad. Be back by 5:30, do the morning routine with the husband (something he’s missed and stated many times – I’ve learned the blessing and beauty of sleeping in while he gets ready), then get his lunch made while he does his coffee/computer time. OK OK OK so that doesn’t actually sound as bad as I thought now that I actually put down the numbers. Jeez, make me out to be a terrible person already!! Good grief.

sorry, got off on a tangent.

Ok so I think those are the big goals. Be better to myself, be better to my kids, be better to my husband. GAH I may be doing this kicking and screaming but it has got to happen! I wont reach any of my goals if I don’t start somewhere.

STRATEGIES:

tackle one day at a time focusing on that week accomplishment.

do it. please lord help me do this.